Enlightenment
“…This Zen saying summed it up, ʻBefore enlightenment chopping wood and carrying water. After enlightenment chopping wood and carrying water.ʼ This was certainly the case for me. I was still chopping wood and carrying fecking water.”
Gurus
“…By and large I don’t think gurus are worth the trouble. Theyʼre basically standing in the doorway leading to the room where God is. They report back over their shoulder telling the rest of us what itʼs like in the room. We hang on their every word because what they are describing is so beautiful. What we really need to say to gurus and ourselves is get out of the f***ing way and let us into the room.“
Abuse
“…Each word cracked me open. Now I knew what she meant. I was bad. I was dirty. I was flawed. She was doing what most child abusers do – making me feel complicit, responsible, like I had instigated it.”
Evil
“…Maybe, ‘As within, so without,ʼ meant that my outer reality was a reflection of my inner reality. Maybe this evil on the edges of my reality was a reflection of an evil in me?
Sex
“…I lay on the bed and she tried to gobble me into life. She had all the enthusiasm of a budget airline flight attendant on the last haul of the day. You know they don’t resent you personally, they just resent their life and you happen to be in it.”
Communication
“…When I talk to someone Iʼm aware that Iʼm sending my words into a reality in which they may be totally misunderstood. By and large Iʼm pleasantly surprised with the response. I don’t have any expectations about being understood so when I am it is, for me, a miracle.”
Reality
“…I was a bit like the crazy guy in the cinema mumbling away to himself, “It’s not real man! It’s all just coloured shadows on the wall.”"
Therapy
“…I learned that wanting the people to get better got in the way. Mixed in with my compassion, I found a desire to turn away from their pain rather than be in it with them; a disrespect for their process, a righteousness.”
Psychic entities
“…Iʼd encountered quite a few psychic entities by the time this latest one showed up in my bedroom. Iʼd done all I could to avoid attracting their attention, but every now and then one showed up. It never got easier. It was always terrifying.”
Death
“…Most fear about death, hell and damnation aside, is about not existing. Death as a concept is okay, but the thoughts of not being around anymore in any way at all are very disturbing. All my memories, the things Iʼve experienced, my uniqueness, my sense of humour, the very essence of who I am, just gone. Itʼs a horrible prospect, yet it happens every night.”
God
“…When you know God and see God and feel God you don’t need to believe in God. You don’t need to ask someone else what God would want you to do. You don’t need to look in a book to see what someone else has written about what God would want you to do. You can go direct to source and check in with God.”
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